December 31, 2014
Last night I was asked, why coffee? Why not chocolate. Coffee is just too hard.
You’re right. Coffee is just too hard. Something I cannot give up without the help of the Holy Spirt because IT IS going to be hard. This journey isn’t about what’s easy, what I can do with my own willpower. It is about asking the Holy Spirit into my life to actually physically and spiritually change me.
I’m desperate for God to move in my life.
I’m willing to give up small bits of what I can in order to realize His presence in my life. Whip me in to shape, so-to-speak.
God’s placed a journey in front of me that I really cannot even imagine what three weeks from now will look like. Life is moving and changing at an incredible rate. As scary as it may be, I don’t want to stop. I really want more. I want that desire to always look and actually BE different to be a constant in my life. When other people see me, I want them to see the difference.
And it has begun.
I could have chosen to wean myself off the coffee. I probably should have, but I haven’t. It’s 7:28pm and I’m still thinking about the left over luxurious McDonald’s sugar free vanilla iced coffee in the fridge. I will be taking those last sips of that iced coffee before I go to bed. That will be my last taste of caffeine’s glorious cart via coffee.
The reality is hitting me though. I noticed just how much comfort today I got from coffee. I actually turned my nose up at coffee that didn’t hit the spot. It wasn’t bold enough and I couldn’t taste the bitterness of the caffeine. Thus the McDonald’s in the fridge.
I’ll leave you with this last thought… I learned a couple days ago that Starbucks is offering free coffee fill-ups with a reusable tumbler.
This is NOT going to be easy!